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Sep. 12th, 2017 04:18 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dani_meowsI feel guilty. A sort of survivor's guilt.
Tampa had been phased to in the words of our mayor take a punch in the face and then Irma shifted course.
During the long night I was happy it stayed on land because the path when it stayed on the gulf before hitting us was the one that would have devastated us.
And then the path shifted. As our local paper said, "Irma staggered along the state like a drunken tourist."
And my section of Tampa was the only part still in the cone... And then even we weren't in the cone.
I was euphoric. It didn't hit us we we're safe, the eye didn't hit us.
Mum (mother in law) was in Georgia, parents were fine, mom was fine, brother was fine...
Then I saw the flooding, the destruction in Jacksonville, in parts of Orlando, in Charleston
And I feel guilty for anxiety fueled euphoria... And yet grateful my home was spared.
Mum's house may be damaged because the area where she lives was closer to the eye path when it was still cat 3 and some parts experienced flooding.
But as she's still in Georgia (leaving today at midday we won't know until later).
And the flooding isn't as bad as Jacksonville and Charleston.
Tampa had been phased to in the words of our mayor take a punch in the face and then Irma shifted course.
During the long night I was happy it stayed on land because the path when it stayed on the gulf before hitting us was the one that would have devastated us.
And then the path shifted. As our local paper said, "Irma staggered along the state like a drunken tourist."
And my section of Tampa was the only part still in the cone... And then even we weren't in the cone.
I was euphoric. It didn't hit us we we're safe, the eye didn't hit us.
Mum (mother in law) was in Georgia, parents were fine, mom was fine, brother was fine...
Then I saw the flooding, the destruction in Jacksonville, in parts of Orlando, in Charleston
And I feel guilty for anxiety fueled euphoria... And yet grateful my home was spared.
Mum's house may be damaged because the area where she lives was closer to the eye path when it was still cat 3 and some parts experienced flooding.
But as she's still in Georgia (leaving today at midday we won't know until later).
And the flooding isn't as bad as Jacksonville and Charleston.
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Date: 2017-09-12 04:27 pm (UTC)I'm glad you're all safe.
As much as we try to predict nature, it's still a thing we can't really do. I also think it's natural to be happy and even euphoric that you are safe. That the worst didn't happen. You need that moment to lose the tension and only then can you worry about other people.
I'm sure that most people in Miami felt that way when instead of the predicted direct hit and Irma travelling up the east cost turned to it turning further and further westward until it reached the west coast. It's the survival instinct and once that's satisfied, we can turn to looking at others and sympathising with them.
It's a choice of us or them when you really want to choose neither. Self preservation will always make you pick the others even if you don't really want to. It's not as if you can argue or reason with a natural phenomenon (well, Thor might be able to)
(And this makes me think I should have studied psychology - or it's that Darwin documentary I watched on Youtube)
Either way, I'm glad you're all fine.