[sticky entry] Sticky: An About Me thingish

Jan. 2nd, 2024 01:20 am
dani_meows: (dw: Nine/rose hello catflap)
The snowflake challenge wants me to update my fandom information

What can I say about myself? I should have an introduction page.

Hi, My name is Danielle. I go by Dani or Dani Rose. I turn 40 in May. I'm trying to find the enjoyment I used to get in blogging and making icons as well as participating in things but I haven't gotten to much of a start since one of my Cats is currently in the hospital.

I love Harry Potter fanfictions. I have mixed feelings about JK Rowling because I haven't read her essay myself and I've seen mixed opinions on her but Harry Potter was a great comfort to me as an abused teenager who wanted to kill myself until I finally ran away from home at age 18. I read almost anything. I have a soft spot for fanfictions where Harry gets the family he deserves.

I loved Bridgerton Season 1 but haven't yet watched Season 2 because Netflix raised their prices but I will.

I love Doctor Who. I haven't watched the series since Clara came on board although I've tried a few times it hasn't felt right.

I love videogames such as Stardew Valley, Dreamlight Valley, Banished, The Sims....

I still read the occasional MCU Or Miraculous Lady Bug fanfiction that catches my eye but I wouldn't say I'm actively seeking them.


I love languages and I study German on Duolingo, alongside Latin, Spanish and Italian. But mostly German because I took classes in my 20's and I know how to pronounce things.

Oh yeah, I'm married and have six cats. My childhood best friend is our roommate and we're a happy little family.

Sometimes a family is a girl, her husband, their five cats, her childhood bestie and her cat...
dani_meows: (dw: rose collage)
Had a good two days as I wait for news on Jasper's test.

Beautiful storm this afternoon then we got hail.

Made icons for a challenge community. I'm tired.

Doctor's appointment for me.
dani_meows: (dw: Rose Tyler Run)
I had a great Saturday.

Mushi was very stubborn about taking his prevet meds to make him calm so he went in without medicine. But he was a good boy for his shots. Vet didn't see anything wrong so he gets six months without vet visits until his blood work and old man check up. Lucky him

Then Ian wasn't hungry at lunchtime so I ordered the KFC I've been craving. Original recipe chicken thighs with coleslaw and biscuits yum!

I spent my day listening to YouTubers talk about things while making Icons. I'll be changing up my icons on here soon.

We had a rain storm that took out the power at one point but I had hated the icon in progress and coming back to it afterwards allowed me a better version of the levels. First one was muted but second time around, I wanted vibrant.



I adore stormy weather.

Dinner was leftovers. I had ravioli with leftover Alfredo sauce.

Jasper got sick a bit today after a few days of not getting sick. Poor kitty we'll have to contact the vet if he keeps getting sick.

Babbles

Jun. 19th, 2025 11:18 pm
dani_meows: (hobbitverse: nostalgic bilbo)
I've been forced to take a break from making Icons due to eye and neck strain. But my muse wants nothing more than to continue.

Last night we had a glorious storm with loud booms which helped distract me from Jasper's stomach issues. Luckily he hasn't thrown up again since he threw up on my blankets last night. Poor boy we discontinued his antibiotic and so far he seems okay.

I'm listening to true crime stories, Crimes that shook Australia, which I switched to after one of the other series covered one that happened on a Florida beach that my mother and I went to often when I was a youngling. The crimes took place the year before I was born and involved younglings going off on their own.

While my parents, Father and Stepmom (mom didn't have custody of me, I visited) went about keeping me safe in a way that gave me a life long anxiety disorder. When listening to true crime sometimes I'm like Oh... There has to be away to keep younglings safe and not convince them they will end up raped and murdered behind a McDonald's! Luckily I'm 41 and so far never had a pregnancy test come up positive so it's not my problem.

One good thing about Jasper throwing up on my blanket is my blanket had to be washed and now it's fresh and clean. Ready for me to burrow my face in and smell the fresh clean laundry smell.

Whenever I listen to Australian true crime I always check to see if they found the Beaumont Children. Sadly they have not.

Nearly sixty years ago they disappeared: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Disappearance_of_the_Beaumont_children

I want to watch tv shows but I struggle to find things that appeal to me.
dani_meows: (disney: alice in wonderland curioser)
I'm very proud of the icons I've made so far in three days. 30 out of 100 on this table since I can put icons there I make for other contests.

https://bipolardanicats.dreamwidth.org/8485.html

I look forward to seeing what my muse makes tomorrow and the next day.
dani_meows: (hp: sirius black)
I am so tired, not physically but mentally. I was overwhelmed even before Jasper's tests came back cancerous but I'm extra tired now.

Limiting my exposure to news has been good for me now if I can only make Tumblr go back to be being about fun and fandoms. I get why it isn't but I don't want to endlessly hear about the war in the middle east. I especially don't want to see people being cool with terrorism because they thing Jewish people are white colonists. Especially the people that I blocked because they were okay with the attacks in Washington and Colorado along with others. None of these Americans marching for peace and for the hostages to be released have anything to do with what's going on in the middle east besides being Jewish.

This plus the other political posts have killed my happy place. I just want to see pictures of my otps kissing/dancing/having shippy moments. Let me be happy please? I might make another blog where I only follow daily gif sites...

I want to curl up and read and go back to learning too.

The bluejays polished off all the food even though we filled it yesterday. Jasper is being a menace to society today which means that he's feeling better. He's been very chatty and has been trying to climb legs but he doesn't want a snack nor does he want to be held. He just wants to be a pest!

The other cats have been a little jealous at the attention Jasper has been getting but Mushi will get a taste of that care on Friday and Saturday. Before his shots he's supposed to have Gabepentin to make him docile so he won't attack the vet during his shots.

Made some icons for daily icons and am working on making a challenge as well. It was fun being creative.
dani_meows: (disney: aristocats)


Jasper is currently resting comfortably with me checking on him frequently to make sure he doesn't scratch his eye area or need anything. In exchange he doesn't have to wear the cone.

So far he's being a real trooper about it just like last time. I really do think cats understand English and he understood my explanations of what was happening.

The opthalmologist took out everything they could and hopefully the biopsy will show the cancer not all the way through the removed tissue.

Ian gets paid in ten minutes so we don't have to worry about not having enough money for groceries/expenses after that.

The above picture is of Jasper at our vet the day we went to understand his diagnosis.

Besides Jasper I've mostly been reading fanfiction and making sure the other three cats aren't jealous of the attention Jasper's getting.

The headache I've had for days is getting better. And I'm glad the cancer cells are hopefully out of my cat.

Three weeks or so we should know for sure.

Which will put us in July. Hopefully after the anniversary of the cat who's death still feels fresh rather than almost a year ago.

Anyway Jasper is asleep and safe for now. I'm going to go back to reading fanfiction mostly about Harry Potter being raised by his godfather. Sometimes with manipulative Dumbledore... They are my weakness.
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Jasper's surgery is in six hours.

I am a mess of anxiety.

We won't know until about 3 weeks or so if this time they got all of it. Last time they didn't know it was cancerous and the cancer was all the way into the margins.

I hope they can get the cancer out. I hope he'll forgive us for putting him through another surgery.

I hope he won't stop cuddling me or purring on my shoulder while nesting onto my boobs for a nap.
dani_meows: (47 and Diana: I choose him/we had trust)
I am so anxious today. My chest hurts. My tongue is numb.

I have a valid reason for my anxiety. Jasper's surgery is soon. This Thursday. I am so afraid. I regret Miso's surgery last year. Even though it was the best chance we had of him living to see six years of age. Unfortunately he was one of ten percent of cats who don't survive multiple urinary tract blockage followed by PU surgery.

This is a different thing but in some ways it's the same. Money is tight. The cat is ill and it all comes down to this treatment.

I also feel bad they have to open the healed area to reopen it. But even if they'd found it earlier we would have had to wait because cats should not go under more than once in a month.

Especially a senior boy with kidney disease.

I want to believe they will successfully remove all the melanoma cells. That they will be successful.

That a few weeks from now I'll be blogging about something random maybe my thoughts on anime or books or literally anything with Jazzy beside me like he is right now. Nori and Boo next to him. My three cat boys having a sleep while their sister plots world domination for endless supplies of ice cream and macaroni noodles.

But I'm scared. Is it my anxiety disorder? Maybe yes? Maybe no.
dani_meows: (hobbitverse: I don't like green food)
I'm finally caught up on comments!

Let's see:

Jasper has surgery on Thursday to hopefully remove the rest of the melanoma which hopefully isn't spreading elsewhere. The lab gave it a 20 percent chance of moving elsewhere. But then again the biopsy was an abundance of caution from the optometrist vet and only had a 15 percent or so chance of being cancerous.

Poor Jasper and I.

He's been in good spirits. His weight is back up but we'd like it if he'd gain a pound. He's a thin mint. He's been curling up and cuddling more since we had to evacuate in October because of hurricane Milton and that trend has continued. No hard feelings from the first surgery and that will hopefully continue with this second one.

I'm preparing for his surgery by trying to change my sleeping schedule so someone is with Jasper at all times. Ian doesn't have off work this time so it'll be a little trickier but thankfully he works from home.

Thinking about making a play pen type thing for him because he's unsteady and frail without meds but becomes extra unsteady on meds.

I got my birthday presents in the mail, and have happily enjoyed the manga for nichijou,
and looking forward to reading the two history books.

Spent some time playing dreamlight valley. Love the Cheshire cat!

I really need some new media my muse is pretty much dead.

Saw the gif of Billie Piper becoming the Doctor it's shame Doctor Who sucks and makes no sense otherwise I would be incoherent with delight. Love me some Billie Piper and in the hands of someone wanting to tell a good story you could do interesting things with that.

I think I'd pick a point and have the Timeless Child be a trap by the Master because that whole thing started the convoluted nonsense that is currently canon. Plus the Master being endlessly tortured as a child in order to have regenerations stolen from him would have made more sense. Given some depth to his crazy. A reason for him to destroy everything.

But supposedly it's cancelled.

Afraid to look at my friends page. Tumblr has been full of people lately that are cool with parroting terrorists phrases being cool with people being killed for being Jewish. I have blocked so soooo many people.
dani_meows: (cats: kitten cute)
So we went to the vet on Wednesday to discuss Jasper's whole health with our primary vet. We trust him a lot because he's been our vet for 13 plus years now.

Our vet said that with Jasper's kidney disease (early stage 1) he wouldn't recommend going to an oncologist for treatments as both radiation and chemo may put to much strain on our boys kidneys.

He sent an email to our optometrist who did Jasper's surgery about the risks of going in again to try and remove the additional melanoma cells. And got back to us that day recommending the surgery to hopefully be able to remove the additional melanoma.

Apparently diffuse iris melanoma doesn't grow back often and it's risk of moving elsewhere is also low.

So next Thursday, Jasper goes back in for surgery.

Hopefully they can save him.

I want to have hope. I'm never ready to say goodbye to my cats. And I want Jasper to live as long as he can. To beat kidney disease and Cancer for as long as possible.

At the vet's office I also got to meet a five week old kitten, that our vet rescued! Omg she was the tiniest little thing.

Jasper than bit me in jealousy! I have my hands full with Jasper, Boo, Bitsy and Nori though!
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Made an appointment to discuss Jasper's future with our vet. So tomorrow I'll know if he gets treatment or if the cancer is such that it'll be time to give my old man cat hospice cat.

Ob July 7th it'll be a year since my five year old cat passed away too.

I'm hoping that it's treatable but the fact that the eye removal didn't contain all of the mass that did turn out cancerous.

I'm not expecting good news.
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Jasper's biopsy results came in

He has melanoma. The sample in the lab showed they didn't get it all.

Don't know what we can afford. Still hurting after Miso's surgery not even a year ago that cost 7k.

Jasper also has kidney disease so...

Waiting to see what our primary vet says.

But I'm not certain how much fight we can do.
dani_meows: (Default)
What a fun day and something it's been. Ian went to pick up Jasper yesterday and our credit card wasn't working (dunno if they rang it correctly because it works today) so rather than half on the credit card and half from our bank account. All of it came from our bank account.

Then when Ian went to the pharmacy the vet wrote the prescription on the wrong paper. Apparently the pain med is a controlled substance.

But by then the vet was closed.

So a phone call to the emergency vet to make sure they could give Jasper the medicine with only an itemized receipt.

Three dogs died while we waited for three and a half hours. I watched a lady name jewelry and chatted while she waited for them to work out a way to treat her cat that was more affordable. She gave me a cute little wire work and bead ring.

Then we were called back. I asked if the gabapentin we give him for anxiety that was prescribed to Miso for pain after his surgery could be used. Because he didn't write anything down or touch the carrier just read the receipt and we already had the pills. They didn't charge us.

I love vets. I got a brief look at Cat Middleton their office cat.

It was midnight. We set up the air mattress for me so Ian could be with Jazzy in the isolation room.

Jasper is walking around and has eaten some. I've spent all day in the isolation room with him.

I made the mistake of looking up whatbthe prognosis is if it's melanoma. It's a death sentence. But!!!! We don't know it's melanoma. It's more likely not to be. So I'm trying to focus on the good.

He's home. He's doing okay and he's not angry at us.




With the cone and without the cone:


I'm still a bit squeamish about the stitches but he still looks handsome.
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I was going to write a silly post about my quest for cake and how delicious it was when I finally got it but then the vet called.

Jasper's surgery was this morning. He's currently doing well BUT they found a pigmented structure that could potentially be the big C behind his eye. It's been removed for biopsy and is probably not Melanoma but we are having it tested obviously.

Fuck.

My birthday is on Tuesday. My 20th wedding anniversary is on Wednesday.

My cat may have cancer to go with his kidney disease.

I'm not ready to lose another one. I know Jazzy is old but...

My Jasper
dani_meows: (cats: kitten cute)
Glorious beautiful rain. Hopefully this means we're Out of fire danger.

Made delicious naan but our Aldis order didn't include our cake or onions. So rather than our Indian food dinner we ate frozen taquitos.

Jasper has been stressed by getting his meds three times a day mess.
dani_meows: (Default)
Jasper cat has to have his eye removed after all. There was a chance that the drops would treat his glaucoma but nonsuch luck.

It's scheduled for the fifteenth. I'm trying to be calm. But cats with their eyes stitched shut makes me want to vomit. And now my beautiful boy will be one of them. I am very squeamish when it involves the eye. Eye based horror is a no go. Even more than normal gore squeamish.

I am terrified. Jazzy is an old boy with kidney disease.

It's a less invasive surgery than the PU surgery my ginger baby didn't survive last year. But Jazzy is old with stage 1 kidney disease.

Miso was only 5 but his cascading organ failure centered in his kidneys before he died in July.

I still can't talk about Miso's death without crying.

It's a less invasive surgery but I'm still scared. I know it will happen eventually Jasper, Mushi and Sebastian are all old men. And even the baby, my little black cat, is turning 5. But if I lose another cat to surgery complications... I might break.

A great lead into my birthday and our 20th wedding anniversary on the 20th and 21st.

At least Aldi's had some Deutsche Küche cake and an apple strudel. Never had the cake before but it looked comforting.

I was going to get a kitten for my birthday because I had made progress in my grief but I don't want a kitten while Jazzy is vulnerable and recovering.
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Deleted most social media because people comparing the US to nazi Germany and suggesting people hoard years of food was making me anxious.

And having a public forum where I criticized things was a potential risk if they are right.

I am a ball of stress at all times.
dani_meows: (cats: siamese if you please)


Happy New Year.

It's already off to a better start. Got my blood work results this morning. My cholesterol/bad cholesterol/triglycerides numbers are normal. My diabetes sick number is good. Only thing I'm going to get a phone call about is my vitamin D which I asked to be tested because it's been awhile and I have a history of it being low.

Earlier when I wanted to get stuff done Ian was busy gaming and didn't want to get up so I entered lazy mode and now he wants to be productive. He's going to have to either wait or make me a cup of coffee...

Bought a carrot cake cheesecake from the store not sure how I feel about it. I love both separately but I'm not a fan of it together.

Not certain we're cooking a fancy dinner today but honestly I'm feasted out...
dani_meows: (dw: a pot of coffee 12 jammie dodgers an)
Happy New Years Eve. Hopefully it's a better one than the year that's leaving today.

Had blood drawn this morning. Am super tired. I'm either taking a nap or celebrating the year before I fall asleep.

Normally my tradition is to reflect on the year that was and what I hope to accomplish in the next but...I'm done talking about this year.

As for resolutions. I want to make improvements on the issues that bring me down. I want to be healthy and creative and maybe feel more hope and enthusiasm again.

About to try a pineberry for the first time.
dani_meows: happy holidays cat. (cats: Christmas kitty)
Merry Christmas!

Hope you all have a good one. I'm doing my best to cheer up and enjoy our delicious feast even if we didn't have enough money to do gift giving.

Having enough money next month to get a new dishwasher will be a lovely gift... and I almost have Ian convinced that we're ready to adopt another cat.

I wrapped my to be read pile of books I bought in the past few years up for an advent calendar so if I want I can put those under the tree lol.

I do look forward to lasagna and a Christmas cake! Our roommate hates pie so we ordered a cake.

Hope y'all have a lovely holiday.

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