I do not want hope
Apr. 1st, 2026 05:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dani_meowsIt's been a series of horrible days in a row.
So Jasper was not eating much but then he began turning his head sharply to the side and refusing all types of food. We found a straight puree "mousse" that he would eat and made a vet appointment.
On Wednesday he went to the vet. Got an exam. Got bloodwork. Dental issues. We made an appointment with a specialist for May but wondered if he'd make it to then as he is all bones and no body fat now. He was 10 pounds when he was healthy and he's 7 pounds now.
On Friday, while the plumbers were doing some unexpected work on our toilet. Apparently a Brazilian pepper plant, an invasive plant, decided to grow in our pipes. The vet called.
Jasper has hyperthyroidism. We made an appointment at the big vet hospital. Not the one that Miso died at two years ago but the one our Joey cat died in ten years ago and the one where we learned that Ariel was dying. Not a place I would like to return to but their care is top notch. For him to get the Iodine treatment. It's a radioactive treatment we wouldn't see Jasper for two weeks while they did it in June but it would fix the problem.
He didn't eat much on the weekend so we made a phone call to the vet and a phone call to a new closer vet who agreed to see him on Monday for dental work.
On Monday, they found a stage 2 or 3 heart murmur but were not able to get all the xrays because my son is kind of an asshole.
He was scheduled for surgery yesterday. Before surgery while he was sedated and not growling hissing and biting they did the scheduled test xrays.
They found a mass in his lungs. No surgery due to the risk if it is inflammation of the heart and lungs.
We have an appointment on the Seventh to above big vet hospital who will do the exam on the mass to determine if it's cancer in both thyroid and lungs. Like the one removed last year. If it is it's the end.
My heart hurts so much. I can't bring myself to hope that it isn't over.
My boy. My jasper.
So Jasper was not eating much but then he began turning his head sharply to the side and refusing all types of food. We found a straight puree "mousse" that he would eat and made a vet appointment.
On Wednesday he went to the vet. Got an exam. Got bloodwork. Dental issues. We made an appointment with a specialist for May but wondered if he'd make it to then as he is all bones and no body fat now. He was 10 pounds when he was healthy and he's 7 pounds now.
On Friday, while the plumbers were doing some unexpected work on our toilet. Apparently a Brazilian pepper plant, an invasive plant, decided to grow in our pipes. The vet called.
Jasper has hyperthyroidism. We made an appointment at the big vet hospital. Not the one that Miso died at two years ago but the one our Joey cat died in ten years ago and the one where we learned that Ariel was dying. Not a place I would like to return to but their care is top notch. For him to get the Iodine treatment. It's a radioactive treatment we wouldn't see Jasper for two weeks while they did it in June but it would fix the problem.
He didn't eat much on the weekend so we made a phone call to the vet and a phone call to a new closer vet who agreed to see him on Monday for dental work.
On Monday, they found a stage 2 or 3 heart murmur but were not able to get all the xrays because my son is kind of an asshole.
He was scheduled for surgery yesterday. Before surgery while he was sedated and not growling hissing and biting they did the scheduled test xrays.
They found a mass in his lungs. No surgery due to the risk if it is inflammation of the heart and lungs.
We have an appointment on the Seventh to above big vet hospital who will do the exam on the mass to determine if it's cancer in both thyroid and lungs. Like the one removed last year. If it is it's the end.
My heart hurts so much. I can't bring myself to hope that it isn't over.
My boy. My jasper.
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Date: 2026-04-01 10:24 pm (UTC)That sucks so much!
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Date: 2026-04-02 02:16 am (UTC)It really does.
There is a chance that the mass they saw on his lungs isn't cancer and is inflammation/infection.
But with him having cancer removed last year and hyperthyroidism in cats being caused by tumors (cancerous or benign). I'm afraid to hope.
But if it isn't then we will do the procedures and hopefully he'll build up strength in between.
And if it is. At least this time I have the time to accept it. And it's not sudden like it was with Miso and Joey. And this time it is an old man cat.
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Date: 2026-04-03 08:15 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2026-04-02 02:30 am (UTC)There is a chance that the mass they saw in the X-ray is infection or inflammation.
But he had cancer in his eye last year and hyperthyroidism in cats is caused by tumors (benign or cancerous).
So I'm trying to have hope. I rescued him 3 years ago but he's probably between 14-20 years old and the odds are not in our favor.
Until then we'll keep trying to feed him and celebrating every bite.