dani_meows | senior kitty woes

Having a senior kitty with a disease is stressful.

And I don't mean the helping him clean his bum. Or the apoetite stimulant. Or the ordering of several different exoensive cat food varieties to see which ones please his majesty today.

He suddenly was super lethargic. Gums were still pink, his breathing was normal. Mine was not.

And suddenly it hit me.

Hes old. He has kidney disease he could die.

Obviously, age does not have to be a factor, Miso was only five when he died a year and half ago a grief that sometimes hits me just as hard as it did that first day.

I do not want to think about the day thats coming. I want to enjoy the silly Jasper things he does.

I do not want to borrow the grief that will come sooner than I would like. Both Mushi andvSebastian turn 15 this year. Bitsy turns 10 and Nori my youngest turns 6. Time is marching on.

I do not want to dwell and yet...