Happy New Year almost

[dani_meows]

2023 is almost over. Thank god!

I've started to recover from how awful the past few years have been for me personally. My mother dying. My home filling up with water in September 2022 the same day the Queen of England was dying.

Both the house filling up with water and destroying much of my childhood photos. The worst being the loss of my pictures of my favorite grandmother! I don't mind losing pictures of me but that... That hurt.

But both of that plus my mothers death meant that 2023 was a year of fighting stress.

We got new flooring put in and just before the year ended the city finally finished fixing the damaged retention ponds and culverts that had caused the water damage. My guess is our insurance company along with other people's insurance companies sought out their money from the city for not maintaining the retention ponds that belong to them.

My Mother's death still hurts me sometimes especially around Christmas. She was born in December and her name was Holly but I am doing better. I still miss her and the wound isn't very well scarred over but it is healing. I think of her a lot when I see the cardinals in the bird feeder. She loved birds especially the bright red ones.

But it's a new year and I have hope. It's a year that I turn 40. A scary momentous number that I'm not quite ready for but it is coming in May.

I have much to babble about but I'm going to end this post here. I want to finish setting up my planner and bullet journal before it hits midnight and finish ironing out my goals.

Happy New Year. May 2024 be kinder to us all.

Comments

[immortalje]

*hugs*

I hope 2024 will bring you plenty of good things and healing for the scars that the stress has left you with!

Turning 40 absolutely blows my mind! The past couple of years, whenever I had to write or say my age, I felt like an absolute liar. I certainly don't feel that old. I might not feel like a 20-something, but my mind appears to be stuck on the early to mid 30s. I'm not upset about my age, I just keep getting surprised by it.

[dani_meows]

*hugs back*

Here's hoping although considering how this year opened maybe it's meant to be trial year.

Yeah, my age feels more like 34 or so certainly not like I'm almost 40. I still feel like I need an adultier Adult sometimes. I always assumed by the time I reached forty I'd have my shit together.

I found my first gray hair last month so I should stop getting surprised that I'm old!

Hopefully next year is kind to you too.

[immortalje]

And adultier adult is certainly right. The last couple of years I've been wondering if my parents and others in that generation felt the same way we did at that age or if they had actually figured it all out. Alternatively, what it actually means to be an adult - especially when comparing the various generations.

I haven't found gray hairs yet, but I think I'm more likely to miss them even if my hair is more of a dark blonde in comparison to just blonde like I was when I was younger. It's slowly but surely getting a bit darker. Still, gray hairs are probably able to blend in better

Thanks :)

[dani_meows]

Ian's always telling me that he thinks people of other generations just faked it better and had a lot more self confidence than we do! But I've given up on ever feeling like an adult.

Mine must have been in the back because I didn't notice it until it was in my scrunchy. And as dark brown as my hair is I'd notice if it was in the front. Still not sure how I feel about this sign that I'm growing older. On the plus side if I go gray I can finally dye my hair pink or purple without having to bleach it first! That could be fun! Plus I could dye it Amy Pond red... Hmm maybe I want it to go full gray faster... I'll think on that!

Pretty icon btw!

[immortalje]

That's always a possibility. I've been wondering if growing up "knowing" that they are adults simply defined what being an adult looks like for us and it's not the same. How can it be the same when they grew up differently? I mean, I remember when we got our first computer and having that along with the internet and all those games - it certainly shaped me differently to my parents who grew up without computers, internet, computer games or even the sheer amount of TV channels. I mean, I can vaguely remember the test card (?) that was shown on TV when nothing was airing at the time. I'm also pretty sure that I was still a kid when most to all TV channels aired something 24/7.

Everything has advantages! The question is just how many disadvantages come along with the advantages ;) Hopefully the advantages outweigh the advantages. It's been ages though since I last dyed my hair. I rarely to never go to a hairdresser and it's too much of a hassle to do it myself.

Thanks. I'm very pleased with how that turned out. In the past year or two I've been trying to remind myself to play more with textures and layer settings. Speaking of icons, just as a fyi, I paused your claims for dailyicons some time last year. If you want to continue or drop them just let me know :)
Also, the nickpic.host was shut down in case you didn't notice yet (reddit post)