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Apr. 30th, 2022 12:22 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dani_meowsMy mother is dead. My feelings are complex. And I'm coming out of numbness now.
I hurt. She knew she was dying. And didn't notify me. Didn't have my half sister tell me.
One final fuck you from a woman who told me she wished she'd had an abortion.
I can't say I'll miss her as much as I can say I miss the possibility that she'd change. Regret her abuse of me and love me like she loved my younger sister.
I miss the mom I only had a few times who rocked me and called me baby mouse.
I hurt. She knew she was dying. And didn't notify me. Didn't have my half sister tell me.
One final fuck you from a woman who told me she wished she'd had an abortion.
I can't say I'll miss her as much as I can say I miss the possibility that she'd change. Regret her abuse of me and love me like she loved my younger sister.
I miss the mom I only had a few times who rocked me and called me baby mouse.
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Date: 2022-05-01 05:28 pm (UTC)I'm sorry. That sounds like a complicated, unpleasant bunch of emotions to process.