(no subject)

I'm finally caught up on comments!

Let's see:

Jasper has surgery on Thursday to hopefully remove the rest of the melanoma which hopefully isn't spreading elsewhere. The lab gave it a 20 percent chance of moving elsewhere. But then again the biopsy was an abundance of caution from the optometrist vet and only had a 15 percent or so chance of being cancerous.

Poor Jasper and I.

He's been in good spirits. His weight is back up but we'd like it if he'd gain a pound. He's a thin mint. He's been curling up and cuddling more since we had to evacuate in October because of hurricane Milton and that trend has continued. No hard feelings from the first surgery and that will hopefully continue with this second one.

I'm preparing for his surgery by trying to change my sleeping schedule so someone is with Jasper at all times. Ian doesn't have off work this time so it'll be a little trickier but thankfully he works from home.

Thinking about making a play pen type thing for him because he's unsteady and frail without meds but becomes extra unsteady on meds.

I got my birthday presents in the mail, and have happily enjoyed the manga for nichijou,
and looking forward to reading the two history books.

Spent some time playing dreamlight valley. Love the Cheshire cat!

I really need some new media my muse is pretty much dead.

Saw the gif of Billie Piper becoming the Doctor it's shame Doctor Who sucks and makes no sense otherwise I would be incoherent with delight. Love me some Billie Piper and in the hands of someone wanting to tell a good story you could do interesting things with that.

I think I'd pick a point and have the Timeless Child be a trap by the Master because that whole thing started the convoluted nonsense that is currently canon. Plus the Master being endlessly tortured as a child in order to have regenerations stolen from him would have made more sense. Given some depth to his crazy. A reason for him to destroy everything.

But supposedly it's cancelled.

Afraid to look at my friends page. Tumblr has been full of people lately that are cool with parroting terrorists phrases being cool with people being killed for being Jewish. I have blocked so soooo many people.

(no subject)

I am so anxious today. My chest hurts. My tongue is numb.

I have a valid reason for my anxiety. Jasper's surgery is soon. This Thursday. I am so afraid. I regret Miso's surgery last year. Even though it was the best chance we had of him living to see six years of age. Unfortunately he was one of ten percent of cats who don't survive multiple urinary tract blockage followed by PU surgery.

This is a different thing but in some ways it's the same. Money is tight. The cat is ill and it all comes down to this treatment.

I also feel bad they have to open the healed area to reopen it. But even if they'd found it earlier we would have had to wait because cats should not go under more than once in a month.

Especially a senior boy with kidney disease.

I want to believe they will successfully remove all the melanoma cells. That they will be successful.

That a few weeks from now I'll be blogging about something random maybe my thoughts on anime or books or literally anything with Jazzy beside me like he is right now. Nori and Boo next to him. My three cat boys having a sleep while their sister plots world domination for endless supplies of ice cream and macaroni noodles.

But I'm scared. Is it my anxiety disorder? Maybe yes? Maybe no.