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I'm alive!

Sorry I went so quiet. I went through a period of depression, followed by a period of blogging in my own head. As my spouse can tell you, I went quiet in real life too. I do feel a bit better even if things are somewhat stressful.

Ian's work schedule has temporarily changed, his school schedule is frustrating he's so busy and what he's learning is so hard. He's working towards his BS in electrical engineering... so he's always busy with homework and studying.

We also have to go apartment hunting soon, which I hate because I a.) don't cope well with change it makes me anxious and b.)I like our current apartment. Unfortunately the rent will be higher and we can't afford that.

In more fun news, Ian and I went to Epcot on his birthday and since we bought tickets during their Florida resident special we've got two more trips to disney before June to look forward too. Epcot was a lot of fun. The only ride I didn't do so well one was the one where they provided barf bags. I managed not to have a panic attack... or get motion sick during the few minute ride strapped in a centrifuge that mimics space like conditions but never again. We were going to eat dinner in Japan but ended up eating in Germany instead. Curry wurst is tasty and so are their paprika chips.

I'll try and be more social but it's been so long since I've talked to anyone that I feel weird just popping back in as if I'd never left. And I feel anxious about it... and that's how I end up not blogging or responding to old comments because I feel anxious about making a blog post.

So hello, I'll try and be better at things. Sorry?

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Happy Birthday!
I hope everything's well with you and the next year is filled with health, success and everything you wish for :)

Hey,

how are you? It's been quite a while. I hope everything's okay with you!
(and I feel you about being a bit quite with blogging!)

Hi, for some reason dreamwidth decided I never needed to see these comments.

So here's an answer three years later.

All this time I thought I vanished and no one noticed and here's comments, I also got terribly lost in Tumblr. And lost my creative groove for a while.

I hope are well, happy, and healthy. I've missed you a lot and I kept meaning to email you.

I'm terrible at this whole friend thing.

Anyways if you see this, because now you are absent haven't been around in a while, *glomps*

That's typical. I've occassionally also come upon comments that I'm certain I never got a notification for!

I first drifted from posting stuff outside of modding the 20in20s while I also lost all inspriation for doing anything with Photoshop. Meanwhile I've been writing Prologues at least (nothing beyond though...) and then last year I started looking for a job (I just needed a change of scenery) and then moved to Munich and all of that saw even the little bit I still did on DW/LJ come to a halt (which reminds me that I probably should close all open rounds/post results and then give them up for adoption).
Most of my time is spent on YouTube these days. It's like an addiction.

I know the feeling. Sometimes it feels like too much of a bother and then I feel bad about being a bad friend. But that's life - at least we're both like that which should make it easier to understand ;)

Maybe I need to get a bit more active again. Type up some of the stuff I've written and see if there's anything worthy to be posted. Might be the motivation I need to clean up all those blogs and start again.

*glomps back*

The internet is always good for screwing things up.

I had two plus years without much inspiration save for the gifs I occasionally created for Tumblr and the batches of icons I created for a challenge last year but mostly I opened photoshop and closed it. But I've suddenly got the muse again... Started by organizing my old icons into a new photobucket account, organizing all of my old stuff into better folders... and now here I am with a set of nearly 20 new icons to post.

I might retake up daily icons for a while since I've currently got the bug... If you don't mind of course.

Yay for moving. Do you like your new job? Ian graduated and works for an engineering firm looking at drawings and planning the electricity and lighting systems for them. He seems to like it. I like the increased wage and the actually getting holidays off.

I've been spending a lot of time on You Tube learning how to play Dungeons and Dragons and run my own campaign.

Hey, I took a several year vacation so there's nothing wrong with avoiding it all for a while more. :-P

I'm not sure if I'll get back into icon making, but perhaps once I return to Dreamwidth or IJ (not sure if I'll revive LJ). Currently all my mind focuses on is fanfiction - both reading and writing. Although, the latter is mostly on paper and I've got a ton to type up. Sadly, most of it is the beginning of stories and then I lose track. I've come across several "Plotbunny Farms" though and I considered creating something like that myself where I just post random snippets that are unlikely be continued.

Feel free to take over dailyicons. If you need access to anything on there, just let me know.

I like my new job. It's very similar to my old one thematic wise, but with slightly different technology/programming languages so it's been great. It helps that it seems far more relaxed than my last one (e.g. no more "the client says jump and you jump"). It also helps that my wage jumped a bit due to the change (also most of it goes to rent as I now have a bigger flat and rents in Munich are slightly more expensive any way!)

I mostly venture into crafting (card making mostly, but I'm trying to get into knitting and sewing) and some life style. And every now and then I browse for real life crime documentary. I'm always amazed at cases being solved decades later!

When it comes to games, I'm mostly playing old DOS games like Colonization, Might & Magic (4?) and UFO:Enemy Unknown. There's just something about the old style games :)

Avoidance is all good :)
However, another type of video I've grown addicted to is in regards to decluttering. They've inspired me to get rid of stuff I haven't looked at in years or that I plain don't need (like nail polish - I've had tons of it and I rarely if ever use nail polish). So finally closing the chapter on those 20in20s would fit right into it. :)

I'm glad you like your job.

That's why I mostly just write drabble sets now putting them all in one collection. One shots are just so much easier.

I'll probably upload all my AOS fics to here from tumblr and my Doctor/Rose smut...

I've tried knitting several times but I can never get a hang of it. I've been reading about quilting and I might be better at that.

I love true crime documentaries but I have to avoid any that take place in Florida and can only watch them when my loved ones are home. I'm really fond of the older show forensic files since it covers the science.

I think Ian owns one of the might and magic games. My games of choice are banished (a city builder type where you are in charge of a bunch of medieval idiots and you try and keep them alive while screaming at them to stop messing around and finish building the food gathering buildings before they starve. I've gotten better at it now and I find it relaxing) and a Diablo 2 style hack and slash called Grim Dawn. I've also been feeling nostalgic for Final Fantasy IX.

Will do on Daily icons. ^_^ I'll probably seek out help for redoing the sign ups page from scratch since it's been a while...

I think I've gotten the hang of knitting and I tried patterns (for scarfs) from youtube that worked out, but actually knitting somehting other than scarfs? Well, I might try hats (I've successfully managed one so far).

I've been considering quilting (and sewing clothes), but I think I'll stick with small things for now.

True crime documentaries can be scary! Especially if they're about unsolved cases. It makes one aware of how dangerous the world can be.

Some games can be really relaxing :D

It might be better to start over from scratch in that regard. I mean, I remember asking if anyone wanted to continue their claims after the last break, but I don't think anyone actually participated in the last couple of weeks that I still posted.

I wish I could knit! No matter how hard I tried I couldn't get a hang of the starting stitch... maybe I'll see if the local craft store offers classes.

If I get a sewing machine for Christmas, the first thing I'll do is learn how to make skirts. I love skirts but they are almost never the length I prefer because I'm short.

I almost always avoid unsolved cases because I don't like thinking about how I could be killed and they could possibly never know who did it. But I have to avoid even the solved ones that take place where I have lived because they make me want to lock my doors and never go outside.

Although one of the ones I did read about was a serial killer who killed young teen girls in the area I grew up in during the early eighties. I almost wonder if that's why my dad was so paranoid about me leaving the house when I was growing up. I could never go out by myself because in my dad's own words I could get raped in murdered and yet ever since I left home and grew up my dad wonders why I never go anywhere and have agoraphobia. But after reading about that serial killer I wonder if that's why. I always put it to my dad being raised in New York.

If you can access it the show Who the Bleep did I marry? Is a really good true crime series. At least the first season was. One of the episodes made me feel really sad for the wife being interviewed. She was abused by her first husband and finally found what she thought to be a great guy and he was the only one who treated her kindly... unfortunately it turned out that he was America's most prolific serial killer... that'd be awful.

They can be. I've been playing a factory building game, factorio with Ian all morning. It's both relaxing and like a puzzle game.

I'll start over with daily icons on both journals but I'll have to figure out how to do the coding. Or just copy paste it from your post... That'd be the better choice.

If I ever venture into clothing, a skirt will be the first thing for me as well.

Fortunately for me, most of the documentaries available take place in English speaking countries - far away from me. I've only found a handful of documentaries about German cases (as I'm watching in English, there probably would be more in German...) and I think that might help.

It could certainly be one reason why. I'm not sure what my parents would have done in that situation. I mostly remember being told not talking to strangers or walking off with them/getting into their cars. And some reports about it on the tv/news. For some reasons petting rabbits is a big key word there. Luckily, nothing ever happened. There's creating caution and then there's creating fear (especially general fear).

I've found plenty of documentaries on Youtube, so I could always check out if there are some of them online. I remember at least once noticing one documentary with a relative (blood or marriage) as the main focus. I think that's probably as traumatising as being a victim/relative of a victim.

I still have the blanks for the prompt posts as a text file (both for ij and dw) if that helps. I haven't found the sign up posts/hall of fame though.

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