Babble babble Dani babble
So much to babble about... I was kinda lost in my own head after my last post having some of the symptoms of a depressive episode. Although it didn't last long enough to count as a bonafide depressive episode I did spend some days just down in the pits of apathy.
I did write a quick drabble for a contest. It was quickly scrawled out and I don't know if it was any good. I hope so since it was written for someone. I liked it when I wrote it. Now of course I have doubts. I always have doubts.
I have a bunch of things to respond to and drabble about but I'm starting to feel cold again the few hours of energy may be wearing off. Am I depressed or am I catching a cold? Who knows?
I made shrimp etouffee last night and it turned out really well. I was supposed to make chicken and dumplings today but the grocery order said it was out of stock on carrots so we are scrounging.
I ordered coffee from an italian bakery today so Ian and I nibbled on half a piece of tiramisu and half a piece of napoleon pastry. Yum. I wonder if any of my relatives ate sweets like that or if they didn't have much of a sweet tooth. I am all sweet tooth but sadly type two diabetic.
I didn't do well with some of my goals this month so I need to spend time tomorrow refining my wants and needs. I really need this year to have some successes.
I did write a quick drabble for a contest. It was quickly scrawled out and I don't know if it was any good. I hope so since it was written for someone. I liked it when I wrote it. Now of course I have doubts. I always have doubts.
I have a bunch of things to respond to and drabble about but I'm starting to feel cold again the few hours of energy may be wearing off. Am I depressed or am I catching a cold? Who knows?
I made shrimp etouffee last night and it turned out really well. I was supposed to make chicken and dumplings today but the grocery order said it was out of stock on carrots so we are scrounging.
I ordered coffee from an italian bakery today so Ian and I nibbled on half a piece of tiramisu and half a piece of napoleon pastry. Yum. I wonder if any of my relatives ate sweets like that or if they didn't have much of a sweet tooth. I am all sweet tooth but sadly type two diabetic.
I didn't do well with some of my goals this month so I need to spend time tomorrow refining my wants and needs. I really need this year to have some successes.
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Just some links and babble
I really don't want to do the dishes.
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Hungarian Goulash
Banana bread
Lemon Bars
I should probably stop postponing the dishes they are still there and the more I ignore them the more they will multiply. I wish dishwashers would empty and load themselves... They will definitely multiply when I make dinner and the lemon bars. Think about how much I love a clean kitchen Dani... It's so nice....
But scrubbing and splashing water on myself and the cat that waits until the water is on the hottest setting to ask for a drink of water so I have to play keep away while waiting for the water to cool just so that he can have a drink...
Sighs. I am full of babbles today. Those that added me recently are probably regretting their life choices now lol.
The icontest I participate in sometimes has some gorgeous icons that needs voting so if you feel like looking at some lovely icons here and voting for lovelies please do. Even though you can see who made what do not vote for icons just because they are mine! That would make me sad. The challenge was to make icons without changing the background. If you make icons they run challenges frequently so feel free to come play.
I also have to make some icons for
dailyicons, I've had inspiration for prompts but haven't been at my computer and I got a really good idea for the voice challenge and I don't want it to go away.Hungarian Goulash
Banana bread
Lemon Bars
I should probably stop postponing the dishes they are still there and the more I ignore them the more they will multiply. I wish dishwashers would empty and load themselves... They will definitely multiply when I make dinner and the lemon bars. Think about how much I love a clean kitchen Dani... It's so nice....
But scrubbing and splashing water on myself and the cat that waits until the water is on the hottest setting to ask for a drink of water so I have to play keep away while waiting for the water to cool just so that he can have a drink...
Sighs. I am full of babbles today. Those that added me recently are probably regretting their life choices now lol.
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I feel so much better now then I did for much of the weekend. I had a migraine on Thursday and Friday bad enough that I had to cancel therapy something I hate doing.
On Saturday I felt wellish and I wanted to participate infirewhiskeyfic's get drunk and write thing. Back when I used to IJ and DW regularly before I got lured into tumblr I always wanted to participate and it always seemed to show up when I had already taken meds that I can't drink when I have.
So I drank Cinnamon Whiskey with Apple Juice, chatted with people and wrote a truly awful nsfw fic piece that I can't share yet even if I want to because they are posted anon first. I can't wait to see what other people wrote!
On Sunday my body let me know that I'm not young anymore and I spent the whole day hungover in bed with my cats. It was down in the forties outside so the cats were cold and wanted to snuggle with a warm human. I even got to snuggle my youngest not snuggly anymore Nori kitty. He's almost two and for the first year and half of his life he loved to cuddle me but for the past few months no cuddles to be had. I miss how he used to lay on my chest and lick my face. Well not so much the face licking part but the eye contact and the love you... part.
Today I woke up a few minutes before the alarm went off because the youngest two kitties were playing with the blinds above our heads. Ian made a delicious breakfast of bacon, eggs, beans, tomato and sausage. And then once he left for work, I baked a banana bread. I hate banana's but if you put it in pudding or bread I love it.
I planned on baking lemon bars today as well but I need more butter so I have to wait until tonight or make it tomorrow morning. The groceries will be delivered later on today but I changed the time because after the bread was done, I was snuggling with my cats and they said it was nap time. So I changed the delivery time to this evening since I could still edit the order and snuggled down with three of my five cats for a nice nap.
I wish I found as much joy doing simple household cleaning as I did when I was baking or cooking. There's something about cooking and baking treats for Ian, Brigid and I that I find relaxing. Cleaning not so much.
Some parts of this weekend weren't so bad. The other reason besides the hangover I was out on Sunday was Ian bleaching the guest bathroom. It needed it. I'm allergic to the chlorine in bleach but despite cleaning the shower regularly it was growing mold. It looks much better now.
Ian made a hungarian goulash recipe I had found that I wanted to try. I've never had paprika as a main seasoning not a decorative element. But omg it was delicious and now it's gone with no more left over already! We had it over mashed potatoes but the recipe mentioned it was delicious over something called spaetzle, which is a german egg noodle. So I went down a rabbit hole looking up recipes for that and I might try that in the next few weeks. While Ian is German on both sides of his family sadly none of them made many recipes from their heritage. I know one of his great Grandparents had to change his name after World War 2 because his name was Adolph and his great grandma spoke German. Ian's dad learned German from her and took German in highschool for an easy A only to discover that while she spoke only German she didn't speak the correct German as far as teachers were concerned.
I find it sad that heritage gets lost so quickly in families. My grandmother on my Dad's side was 100% Irish and my grandfather was 100% Italian. All of our recipes are from the Italian side. But my Grandfather refused to speak Italian or teach his kids Italian so that's all that remains. From my Grandma's side she never made any recipes from her family at all. An Irish/Italian romance at the time was looked down upon because neither side were getting along in New York at the time so she made herself more Italian than the others in her neighborhood and hid her Irish side.
I wish more elements of culture was remembered and I had asked more questions of people before they passed...
I think I was going somewhere else with this wall of Dani babble but it's time to go and do some more housework... Sighs
On Saturday I felt wellish and I wanted to participate in
firewhiskeyfic's get drunk and write thing. Back when I used to IJ and DW regularly before I got lured into tumblr I always wanted to participate and it always seemed to show up when I had already taken meds that I can't drink when I have.So I drank Cinnamon Whiskey with Apple Juice, chatted with people and wrote a truly awful nsfw fic piece that I can't share yet even if I want to because they are posted anon first. I can't wait to see what other people wrote!
On Sunday my body let me know that I'm not young anymore and I spent the whole day hungover in bed with my cats. It was down in the forties outside so the cats were cold and wanted to snuggle with a warm human. I even got to snuggle my youngest not snuggly anymore Nori kitty. He's almost two and for the first year and half of his life he loved to cuddle me but for the past few months no cuddles to be had. I miss how he used to lay on my chest and lick my face. Well not so much the face licking part but the eye contact and the love you... part.
Today I woke up a few minutes before the alarm went off because the youngest two kitties were playing with the blinds above our heads. Ian made a delicious breakfast of bacon, eggs, beans, tomato and sausage. And then once he left for work, I baked a banana bread. I hate banana's but if you put it in pudding or bread I love it.
I planned on baking lemon bars today as well but I need more butter so I have to wait until tonight or make it tomorrow morning. The groceries will be delivered later on today but I changed the time because after the bread was done, I was snuggling with my cats and they said it was nap time. So I changed the delivery time to this evening since I could still edit the order and snuggled down with three of my five cats for a nice nap.
I wish I found as much joy doing simple household cleaning as I did when I was baking or cooking. There's something about cooking and baking treats for Ian, Brigid and I that I find relaxing. Cleaning not so much.
Some parts of this weekend weren't so bad. The other reason besides the hangover I was out on Sunday was Ian bleaching the guest bathroom. It needed it. I'm allergic to the chlorine in bleach but despite cleaning the shower regularly it was growing mold. It looks much better now.
Ian made a hungarian goulash recipe I had found that I wanted to try. I've never had paprika as a main seasoning not a decorative element. But omg it was delicious and now it's gone with no more left over already! We had it over mashed potatoes but the recipe mentioned it was delicious over something called spaetzle, which is a german egg noodle. So I went down a rabbit hole looking up recipes for that and I might try that in the next few weeks. While Ian is German on both sides of his family sadly none of them made many recipes from their heritage. I know one of his great Grandparents had to change his name after World War 2 because his name was Adolph and his great grandma spoke German. Ian's dad learned German from her and took German in highschool for an easy A only to discover that while she spoke only German she didn't speak the correct German as far as teachers were concerned.
I find it sad that heritage gets lost so quickly in families. My grandmother on my Dad's side was 100% Irish and my grandfather was 100% Italian. All of our recipes are from the Italian side. But my Grandfather refused to speak Italian or teach his kids Italian so that's all that remains. From my Grandma's side she never made any recipes from her family at all. An Irish/Italian romance at the time was looked down upon because neither side were getting along in New York at the time so she made herself more Italian than the others in her neighborhood and hid her Irish side.
I wish more elements of culture was remembered and I had asked more questions of people before they passed...
I think I was going somewhere else with this wall of Dani babble but it's time to go and do some more housework... Sighs
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Migraine so bad. I threw up and had to cancel therapy if it's today.
My brain is pulsating.Yet I can't sleep. Might use an ice pack.
My brain is pulsating.Yet I can't sleep. Might use an ice pack.
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A grab bag of Dani babble with a side of therapy homework
There was only enough coffee for a short glass for Ian and I this morning and I'm already feeling sleepy again. It's tempting to take a nap but I have a lot of things to do today.
Mostly to finish putting the house in some order and to start packing up Christmas presents. I also bought some new sheets this morning but I still need to purchase some more organizational packages I think. I also want to buy some new spring decor.
So let's start with my therapy assignment which I'll either link to my therapist, Hi Ally or I'll copy and paste it over to her later.
( Dani's childhood sucked and here's her babble thoughts about it )
That was fun. Therapy Tuesday is complete. I don't remember which afternoon I actually have therapy but assignment complete.
I think I'll go snuggle a cat now
Mostly to finish putting the house in some order and to start packing up Christmas presents. I also bought some new sheets this morning but I still need to purchase some more organizational packages I think. I also want to buy some new spring decor.
So let's start with my therapy assignment which I'll either link to my therapist, Hi Ally or I'll copy and paste it over to her later.
( Dani's childhood sucked and here's her babble thoughts about it )
That was fun. Therapy Tuesday is complete. I don't remember which afternoon I actually have therapy but assignment complete.
I think I'll go snuggle a cat now
A babble, a link and why do I never title these
I very seldom fill out a title because I very seldom know what to put there unless I am sharing fanfiction, icons or something about a single subject.
Usually I am just babbling about my day or things I find interesting.
My day wasn't bad. I changed the time on the groceries to pm and then slept in until 11. Making up for the frustrating fact that I couldn't sleep because of an internal countdown that I had only 8 hours less than 8 hours... less than keeping me from falling asleep.
So soon my grocery order will be here to be put away. It's not too much stuff. But does include some cat litter so that Ian can do the boxes tonight. They were freshened up yesterday but they need a full clean. But when Ian went to the other grocery store this weekend they only had store brand litter and it's too powdery to be the main litter. The fact that there seems to be a cat litter shortage is even more concerning to me than the shortage of wet food since we at least had a dry food alternative that has been good for the boys.
My two big boys have gotten their weight down by about a pound and have been playing more. And the others seem to be thriving on just dry food. But if cat litter becomes difficult to find what will we use as an alternative?
I've been meaning to link to one of my favorite true crime series on Youtube. So I put the link to the first season's playlist below and started listening to the episodes again. I like the way this series covers crime from Europe and the US mostly and includes interviews with people affected by the crimes. The psychiatrist they interview sometimes seems very shallow in her commentary when you watch multiple episodes because she seldom has anything new or interesting to say after awhile but the rest of the show is great.
World's Most Evil Killers Season 1 playlist
I forgot about how much the first episode makes me rage/sad about the plight of prostitutes. I wish we could legalize prostitution if it's going to be something people engage in and keep people safe. I wonder if places where it's legal have better crime statistics or not. But the fact that some people don't report them missing, people don't always care about crimes done just to them... It makes me so sad. They are human beings damnit. They deserve just as much care and compassion as any other crime victim. They didn't ask for it...
Oh hello soapbox... I better put you away it's time to find out what my family wants for dinner and get it started if I'm cooking today.
This season has at least one of the cases that take place in Germany, Volker Eckert. And has Levi Bellfield who I keep meaning to finish the itv series Manhunt about.
Edit: Another German case: Joachim Kroll. I think that was the cannibal one that made me queasy so just in case I'll skip watching it late at night.
Usually I am just babbling about my day or things I find interesting.
My day wasn't bad. I changed the time on the groceries to pm and then slept in until 11. Making up for the frustrating fact that I couldn't sleep because of an internal countdown that I had only 8 hours less than 8 hours... less than keeping me from falling asleep.
So soon my grocery order will be here to be put away. It's not too much stuff. But does include some cat litter so that Ian can do the boxes tonight. They were freshened up yesterday but they need a full clean. But when Ian went to the other grocery store this weekend they only had store brand litter and it's too powdery to be the main litter. The fact that there seems to be a cat litter shortage is even more concerning to me than the shortage of wet food since we at least had a dry food alternative that has been good for the boys.
My two big boys have gotten their weight down by about a pound and have been playing more. And the others seem to be thriving on just dry food. But if cat litter becomes difficult to find what will we use as an alternative?
I've been meaning to link to one of my favorite true crime series on Youtube. So I put the link to the first season's playlist below and started listening to the episodes again. I like the way this series covers crime from Europe and the US mostly and includes interviews with people affected by the crimes. The psychiatrist they interview sometimes seems very shallow in her commentary when you watch multiple episodes because she seldom has anything new or interesting to say after awhile but the rest of the show is great.
World's Most Evil Killers Season 1 playlist
I forgot about how much the first episode makes me rage/sad about the plight of prostitutes. I wish we could legalize prostitution if it's going to be something people engage in and keep people safe. I wonder if places where it's legal have better crime statistics or not. But the fact that some people don't report them missing, people don't always care about crimes done just to them... It makes me so sad. They are human beings damnit. They deserve just as much care and compassion as any other crime victim. They didn't ask for it...
Oh hello soapbox... I better put you away it's time to find out what my family wants for dinner and get it started if I'm cooking today.
This season has at least one of the cases that take place in Germany, Volker Eckert. And has Levi Bellfield who I keep meaning to finish the itv series Manhunt about.
Edit: Another German case: Joachim Kroll. I think that was the cannibal one that made me queasy so just in case I'll skip watching it late at night.
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Insomnia.
I was sleepy. Laid down with 8 hours until the alarm goes off. Now I have less than six.
I wonder if I should change the time on the grocery order.
Maybe I'll get up and be creative if I don't fall asleep now that I'm feeling sleepy again.
I was sleepy. Laid down with 8 hours until the alarm goes off. Now I have less than six.
I wonder if I should change the time on the grocery order.
Maybe I'll get up and be creative if I don't fall asleep now that I'm feeling sleepy again.
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I'm sipping a tasty cafe con leche and trying to decide on ornament boxes. I don't want to unwrap copious amounts of paper towels next year. I want one so that I can see all of ornaments because we have more than I can put up and it's currently a first unwrapped first up situation.
I also need to deal with sorting and dealing with the papers and such set to the side for going through later.
And then organize the fridge for cooking. I want to make some German potato salad this week since I found Ian's grandma's recipe. It's a warm potato salad with a vinegar, bacon, and sugar sauce. I loved it and was sad when we lost the written recipe. But while sorting books we found a written recipe book Ian's mom never uses, she hates cooking, we found that. It also had a recipe for Grandma's strawberry rhubarb pie and zucchini bread.
Bitsy is singing a song so I've gotta go cuddle a cat.
In a good news moment my rash is improving so it's likely it was caused by lamictal.
Edit: Also woke up this morning to a take shelter tornadoes were likely warning but thankfully nothing happened.
I also need to deal with sorting and dealing with the papers and such set to the side for going through later.
And then organize the fridge for cooking. I want to make some German potato salad this week since I found Ian's grandma's recipe. It's a warm potato salad with a vinegar, bacon, and sugar sauce. I loved it and was sad when we lost the written recipe. But while sorting books we found a written recipe book Ian's mom never uses, she hates cooking, we found that. It also had a recipe for Grandma's strawberry rhubarb pie and zucchini bread.
Bitsy is singing a song so I've gotta go cuddle a cat.
In a good news moment my rash is improving so it's likely it was caused by lamictal.
Edit: Also woke up this morning to a take shelter tornadoes were likely warning but thankfully nothing happened.
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I'm so tired. I did have a two hour nap this morning but I suspect that soon I'll fall asleep and not wake up until late tomorrow. Hopefully not too late because I've got a purple icon in progress for daily icons that I like where it's going. Scully looks good in purple.
I also have answered comments in my head and want to type them out while also babbling about the writing excercise I did. I then want to share the five minute sprint I wrote. I'm not sure where I would take it next but it could be nice.
Ian brought home some medicine. So I have about a five on the pain scale rather than a 9.5 like this morning. He would have picked up some more items but I had a craving so he hit taco bell instead. I needed a burrito.
I talked to my psychiatrist today about whether the rash on my arm is a lamictal rash and I now have to taper my dosage. The rash cream my doctor had prescribed thinking it was a excercise induced rash caused by sweat, hadn't worked at all for more than ten days and in the past few days it worsened. Hopefully discontinuing my lamictal makes it go away.
And now I think I'll drift to sleep I'm losing focus.
I also have answered comments in my head and want to type them out while also babbling about the writing excercise I did. I then want to share the five minute sprint I wrote. I'm not sure where I would take it next but it could be nice.
Ian brought home some medicine. So I have about a five on the pain scale rather than a 9.5 like this morning. He would have picked up some more items but I had a craving so he hit taco bell instead. I needed a burrito.
I talked to my psychiatrist today about whether the rash on my arm is a lamictal rash and I now have to taper my dosage. The rash cream my doctor had prescribed thinking it was a excercise induced rash caused by sweat, hadn't worked at all for more than ten days and in the past few days it worsened. Hopefully discontinuing my lamictal makes it go away.
And now I think I'll drift to sleep I'm losing focus.
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I'm in really bad pain. My cramps haven't been this bad in awhile. It's two am and I can't sleep. I'm curled up in bed with my phone in the dark but in a bit I may go out to the living room. I had the electric blanket on earlier but I got to warm.
The highlight of my day was a pistachio frappe and a breakfast Sammie. I spent most of my day listening to my audiobook and resting.
I think I had something to say besides whining when I opened up the tab but I don't know what it was. If I'm still up in 3 and a half hours I'll treat my hubby to breakfast.
The highlight of my day was a pistachio frappe and a breakfast Sammie. I spent most of my day listening to my audiobook and resting.
I think I had something to say besides whining when I opened up the tab but I don't know what it was. If I'm still up in 3 and a half hours I'll treat my hubby to breakfast.
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I am so tired lately. And moody but I suspect I know why. We'll see if chocolate week starts tomorrow. I bought some good lindt truffles just in case. But typically when I get teary at my cat not wanting cuddles it means it's the week where I need chocolate to maintain a good mood.
I got some icons made this week. I signed up forgetyourwordsout with the habit of writing for 120 days this year. So I plan on trying to get into the habits of exercising my creativity on most days of the year.
I also want to get back in the habit of babbling on here and talking to friends and making new friends.
I spent today listening to an audio book called Mafia Prince it was a really good memoir by Philip Leonetti about the Philadelphia/Atlantic City mob and why he left the life he was raised in. I found it very interesting. The audiobook I'm now listening to has more information about mafia history but it's more textbook than the other one. On the plus side both books have the common name my great grandfather had being pronounced a lot so I've learned how to pronounce Giuseppe.
Mafia history interests me because according to family lore. A famous mob boss was my grandfather's catholic church godfather. When my grandfather got arrested as a preteen during prohibition he told my grandfather that under no circumstances was he allowed to join the family. There may be some truth to the family lore. My maiden name and his last name show intermarriages around the time period and they were from the same small town in Italy. So now that I enjoy true crime stories something I wouldn't think I liked listening to because I hate seeing violence on tv. I wanted to learn more. And I'm enjoying it.
I managed to do other things while listening which is nice because normally if I'm focusing on listening to things I can't focus on doing other things. But apparently I can cook and make icons while listening even if I can't write while listening.
I'm feeling nostalgic I've been clearing out my inbox and I'm in 2009.![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
immortalje and I have been friends for a lot longer that I thought. Thank you for tolerating my babble and silences my friend! Love you. ^_^
I made a pizza lasagna today it wasn't bad. Kind of a mix of ricotta, mozzarella and lasagna noodles with pizza toppings and sauce. Ian liked it a lot.
I've also spent time working on my German. We bought a Rosetta stone account and I'm learning German while Ian is learning Japanese. I don't know how I feel about it's approach. I keep getting frustrated by not doing well because They and She are both Sie and since it doesn't present verb conjugations to learn first I keep choosing the wrong translation. And I failed on which made me not want to go on. But I do want to brush up and then finish learning my German.
I don't know what else I planned on babbling about and this is getting long.
I got some icons made this week. I signed up for
getyourwordsout with the habit of writing for 120 days this year. So I plan on trying to get into the habits of exercising my creativity on most days of the year.I also want to get back in the habit of babbling on here and talking to friends and making new friends.
I spent today listening to an audio book called Mafia Prince it was a really good memoir by Philip Leonetti about the Philadelphia/Atlantic City mob and why he left the life he was raised in. I found it very interesting. The audiobook I'm now listening to has more information about mafia history but it's more textbook than the other one. On the plus side both books have the common name my great grandfather had being pronounced a lot so I've learned how to pronounce Giuseppe.
Mafia history interests me because according to family lore. A famous mob boss was my grandfather's catholic church godfather. When my grandfather got arrested as a preteen during prohibition he told my grandfather that under no circumstances was he allowed to join the family. There may be some truth to the family lore. My maiden name and his last name show intermarriages around the time period and they were from the same small town in Italy. So now that I enjoy true crime stories something I wouldn't think I liked listening to because I hate seeing violence on tv. I wanted to learn more. And I'm enjoying it.
I managed to do other things while listening which is nice because normally if I'm focusing on listening to things I can't focus on doing other things. But apparently I can cook and make icons while listening even if I can't write while listening.
I'm feeling nostalgic I've been clearing out my inbox and I'm in 2009.
immortalje and I have been friends for a lot longer that I thought. Thank you for tolerating my babble and silences my friend! Love you. ^_^I made a pizza lasagna today it wasn't bad. Kind of a mix of ricotta, mozzarella and lasagna noodles with pizza toppings and sauce. Ian liked it a lot.
I've also spent time working on my German. We bought a Rosetta stone account and I'm learning German while Ian is learning Japanese. I don't know how I feel about it's approach. I keep getting frustrated by not doing well because They and She are both Sie and since it doesn't present verb conjugations to learn first I keep choosing the wrong translation. And I failed on which made me not want to go on. But I do want to brush up and then finish learning my German.
I don't know what else I planned on babbling about and this is getting long.
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It's a nice and cheery Sunday morning. I woke up surprisingly well rested something that hasn't happened in a bit. And since we forgot to make the cold brew, Ian went and picked up drinks from Dunkin's. I got a tasty Matcha latte.
I've really been all about the matcha tea lately. I bought some matcha powder that's supposed to arrive this week so I can make my own.
Currently we've got onions simmering on the stove for a tasty lunch of whole wheat egg noodles, meatless meatballs and onion gravy. And I think I'll put together a nice stir fry for dinner. Later on today I have to meal plan.
I made some icons today. Mushi, my eldest boy, kept trying to help me out. By taking up half the screen. He didn't want pets but he did want to be seen. Finally Ian lured him over to his computer desk by promising him brushing and then I was able to make icons. I nearly discarded one of them at one point in the creative process but it became my favorite of the ones I made for the prompt hat.
We played some DND yesterday. I had fun. My spells dealt a lot of damage and my rolls were good. I just need to work on fleshing out my character some more. I miss the roleplaying I did when it was just Ian and I as opposed to Ian, Brigid, and I but I don't know if it's because I had a very well rounded back story for my wizard as opposed to a very minimal backstory for my druid.
I've got a few things to do today but I also kind of want a lazy Sunday with some Stardew Valley playtime. Maybe a little animal crossing.
Ooh it's food time. Hurray!
I've really been all about the matcha tea lately. I bought some matcha powder that's supposed to arrive this week so I can make my own.
Currently we've got onions simmering on the stove for a tasty lunch of whole wheat egg noodles, meatless meatballs and onion gravy. And I think I'll put together a nice stir fry for dinner. Later on today I have to meal plan.
I made some icons today. Mushi, my eldest boy, kept trying to help me out. By taking up half the screen. He didn't want pets but he did want to be seen. Finally Ian lured him over to his computer desk by promising him brushing and then I was able to make icons. I nearly discarded one of them at one point in the creative process but it became my favorite of the ones I made for the prompt hat.
We played some DND yesterday. I had fun. My spells dealt a lot of damage and my rolls were good. I just need to work on fleshing out my character some more. I miss the roleplaying I did when it was just Ian and I as opposed to Ian, Brigid, and I but I don't know if it's because I had a very well rounded back story for my wizard as opposed to a very minimal backstory for my druid.
I've got a few things to do today but I also kind of want a lazy Sunday with some Stardew Valley playtime. Maybe a little animal crossing.
Ooh it's food time. Hurray!
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It's friday! Yay!
I'm looking forward to tonight. I love Friday nights. When Ian comes home from work his work week will be set aside until Monday morning. He'll be less stressed. His boss really values him at his job but they have very few staff since it's a small engineering firm and Ian spends a lot of time working on big projects both solar and traditional electrical engineering projects. However it seems that the deadlines keep causing him to have to work very late. And on Wednesday right after he had finished a project so that he could work on his other impending deadline projects he got an email telling him to no longer work on that project since there were changes coming even though it's due next week.
So yeah, he's been a bit stressed.
Meanwhile my only plans consist of doing some gaming this weekend, responding to comments and such, and doing the laundry. Brigid's been using the machines all week this week as she keeps getting distracted watching the tv shows I got her for Christmas. She's currently watching Black Sails. I'm loving the theme song.
I have some packages coming today. One is a hopefully much less broken dvd set of Warner Brother's best romantic movies. The one that arrived on Monday was in pieces. Hopefully this one isn't because It's got a lot of good movies on it. Another is lingonberry jam, I've got some crepes in the freezer and I'm hoping to get a flavor similar to the crepes at Ihop. One of the others is some custom dice for Ian and Brigid's birthdays in February and March. I hope they look as cute in real life as they did in the etsy shop.
I also keep being cheerful about the fact that Russel T. Davies is returning to write for Doctor Who. Is there hope that it'll be good again? I really miss Doctor Who. But the current writer is just as bad as Moffit got during season 6...so I tend to pretend that show got cancelled. I especially didn't like what I read about them inserting still more Doctors into the mix now before the First Doctor and making the Doctor not a Gallifreyan... It was bad enough when Moffit added the war Doctor before Nine. It made it so the numbering system got screwed up and confusing. Which can be very frustrating when reading fanfiction and Eleven isn't acting like Eleven and then you read further and realize they mean the Tenth Doctor... But since the later doctors Retconned RTD's writing maybe he can return the favor and ditch all of that.
It was all just a dream boom the Doctor regenerates into a Doctor played by Billie Piper and her grumpy companions played by Christopher Eccleston, David Tennant and Matt Smith...
But now it's time to go do some household tasks and maybe go see what my cats are up to. Never mind the littlest one my black cat, just climbed on the desk it is apparently time to pet the cat.
I'm looking forward to tonight. I love Friday nights. When Ian comes home from work his work week will be set aside until Monday morning. He'll be less stressed. His boss really values him at his job but they have very few staff since it's a small engineering firm and Ian spends a lot of time working on big projects both solar and traditional electrical engineering projects. However it seems that the deadlines keep causing him to have to work very late. And on Wednesday right after he had finished a project so that he could work on his other impending deadline projects he got an email telling him to no longer work on that project since there were changes coming even though it's due next week.
So yeah, he's been a bit stressed.
Meanwhile my only plans consist of doing some gaming this weekend, responding to comments and such, and doing the laundry. Brigid's been using the machines all week this week as she keeps getting distracted watching the tv shows I got her for Christmas. She's currently watching Black Sails. I'm loving the theme song.
I have some packages coming today. One is a hopefully much less broken dvd set of Warner Brother's best romantic movies. The one that arrived on Monday was in pieces. Hopefully this one isn't because It's got a lot of good movies on it. Another is lingonberry jam, I've got some crepes in the freezer and I'm hoping to get a flavor similar to the crepes at Ihop. One of the others is some custom dice for Ian and Brigid's birthdays in February and March. I hope they look as cute in real life as they did in the etsy shop.
I also keep being cheerful about the fact that Russel T. Davies is returning to write for Doctor Who. Is there hope that it'll be good again? I really miss Doctor Who. But the current writer is just as bad as Moffit got during season 6...so I tend to pretend that show got cancelled. I especially didn't like what I read about them inserting still more Doctors into the mix now before the First Doctor and making the Doctor not a Gallifreyan... It was bad enough when Moffit added the war Doctor before Nine. It made it so the numbering system got screwed up and confusing. Which can be very frustrating when reading fanfiction and Eleven isn't acting like Eleven and then you read further and realize they mean the Tenth Doctor... But since the later doctors Retconned RTD's writing maybe he can return the favor and ditch all of that.
It was all just a dream boom the Doctor regenerates into a Doctor played by Billie Piper and her grumpy companions played by Christopher Eccleston, David Tennant and Matt Smith...
But now it's time to go do some household tasks and maybe go see what my cats are up to. Never mind the littlest one my black cat, just climbed on the desk it is apparently time to pet the cat.
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I meant to post before today but this week has been flying by.
I've been busy organizing my space and saying goodbye to older things. It's quite freeing to go through boxes of older things and realize that you don't feel any emotional attachments to older books and can let go of them.
Next up is stacks of papers and old diaries and notebooks. I don't know what I'll get rid of or keep it depends on which items make me happy.
I really enjoyed reading Marie Kondo's the Life changing magic of tidying up... so far the bits I'm using from it are going well.
I had therapy today so I talked about the family drama. There's something nice about hearing your therapist say she's fucking proud of you.
The other highlight of today is that Ian brought home a pistachio frappuccino. It was delicious. Sadly it didn't help my headache. Sometimes they do.
My youngest cat, my little black cat, has been spending a lot of time in Brigid's room because she keeps her electric blanket on even when it's not that cold. She plugged in a new air freshener that's vanila scented and my cat's head smells like vanilla.
Brigid made green bean casserole today and it was delicious. I don't like most green bean casseroles but I do like hers.
Tomorrow I'll be making lasagna. I was planning on making it today but my head hurts. Tomorrow night is dnd night and I'll be playing with the metalic dice set that Ian got me for christmas. Hopefully my new character begins to feel more character like because so far I keep thinking how much I miss Minerva my wizard. She's a druid.
I might watch some Doctor Who tomorrow I'm feeling nostalgic. A little Doctor Who rewatch might be what the Ninth Doctor ordered.
I've been busy organizing my space and saying goodbye to older things. It's quite freeing to go through boxes of older things and realize that you don't feel any emotional attachments to older books and can let go of them.
Next up is stacks of papers and old diaries and notebooks. I don't know what I'll get rid of or keep it depends on which items make me happy.
I really enjoyed reading Marie Kondo's the Life changing magic of tidying up... so far the bits I'm using from it are going well.
I had therapy today so I talked about the family drama. There's something nice about hearing your therapist say she's fucking proud of you.
The other highlight of today is that Ian brought home a pistachio frappuccino. It was delicious. Sadly it didn't help my headache. Sometimes they do.
My youngest cat, my little black cat, has been spending a lot of time in Brigid's room because she keeps her electric blanket on even when it's not that cold. She plugged in a new air freshener that's vanila scented and my cat's head smells like vanilla.
Brigid made green bean casserole today and it was delicious. I don't like most green bean casseroles but I do like hers.
Tomorrow I'll be making lasagna. I was planning on making it today but my head hurts. Tomorrow night is dnd night and I'll be playing with the metalic dice set that Ian got me for christmas. Hopefully my new character begins to feel more character like because so far I keep thinking how much I miss Minerva my wizard. She's a druid.
I might watch some Doctor Who tomorrow I'm feeling nostalgic. A little Doctor Who rewatch might be what the Ninth Doctor ordered.
I feel free
I feel so very free right now.
Normally by now I'd probably have had a food binge or crying jag or guilt binge but I feel so free. Kind of a nervous energy behind it but I told my father off and I feel like something tight within me was free.
So this drama all started a few days before Christmas when my brother invited me over to his house via text message. It was a work day and Ian had a bunch of projects to get out the door before he had this week off and I didn't want to add to his stress and bug him at work.
My brother didn't include any mention of their being a lot of people so I was inclined to say yes. Especially since Ian's family moved to Alabama in 2020 and therefore we wouldn't be having dinner with his mom and grandma.
Ian got home late so I forgot to ask that night. My stepmom sent a text saying hey did you get your brother's text message? If you can't come maybe we can do brunch before we go back across the state. I plan on replying now because as far as I know I'm on good and somewhat peaceful terms with my parents. Still healing from my shit childhood but not having any plans to talk about the abuse... and things have been okay.
I have shitty phone service though, it's cheap and does it's job most of the time, so we keep it. But it wasn't letting me send replies.
That's when the shit hits the fan. Large screencaps behind the cut. It ended in me finally deciding to talk about the issues I've spent three years in therapy and have been dealing with said trauma causing a crippling anxiety disorder.
Warning for mentions of extreme discipline of children backhanding across the face holding up by the neck, etc. Also talk of death of grandparents...
( Caps taken off my phone look huge on the pc... )
I haven't heard a thing back since. Not a merry christmas message from either my stepmom Vicki or my Dad. My brother messaged me back after I sent him a Merry Christmas message but nothing from my parents. Not even a we never abused you which is what I was expecting to hear back.
I brooded for a few days but now I just feel content. I acknowledged that I was abused by parents to my parents. I finally explained myself a bit.
I said some stuff that I'll be unpacking in therapy for certain. I have a feeling my therapist will be pleased by this. I hope so anyways...
In other news my christmas was great. I have goals for the coming year, a paid account again and a sense of creativity...
But now I feel free and honestly almost giddy.
Normally by now I'd probably have had a food binge or crying jag or guilt binge but I feel so free. Kind of a nervous energy behind it but I told my father off and I feel like something tight within me was free.
So this drama all started a few days before Christmas when my brother invited me over to his house via text message. It was a work day and Ian had a bunch of projects to get out the door before he had this week off and I didn't want to add to his stress and bug him at work.
My brother didn't include any mention of their being a lot of people so I was inclined to say yes. Especially since Ian's family moved to Alabama in 2020 and therefore we wouldn't be having dinner with his mom and grandma.
Ian got home late so I forgot to ask that night. My stepmom sent a text saying hey did you get your brother's text message? If you can't come maybe we can do brunch before we go back across the state. I plan on replying now because as far as I know I'm on good and somewhat peaceful terms with my parents. Still healing from my shit childhood but not having any plans to talk about the abuse... and things have been okay.
I have shitty phone service though, it's cheap and does it's job most of the time, so we keep it. But it wasn't letting me send replies.
That's when the shit hits the fan. Large screencaps behind the cut. It ended in me finally deciding to talk about the issues I've spent three years in therapy and have been dealing with said trauma causing a crippling anxiety disorder.
Warning for mentions of extreme discipline of children backhanding across the face holding up by the neck, etc. Also talk of death of grandparents...
( Caps taken off my phone look huge on the pc... )
I haven't heard a thing back since. Not a merry christmas message from either my stepmom Vicki or my Dad. My brother messaged me back after I sent him a Merry Christmas message but nothing from my parents. Not even a we never abused you which is what I was expecting to hear back.
I brooded for a few days but now I just feel content. I acknowledged that I was abused by parents to my parents. I finally explained myself a bit.
I said some stuff that I'll be unpacking in therapy for certain. I have a feeling my therapist will be pleased by this. I hope so anyways...
In other news my christmas was great. I have goals for the coming year, a paid account again and a sense of creativity...
But now I feel free and honestly almost giddy.
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I am so tired. My head hurts and my cat won't shut up. My temper is hanging on by a thread. I very much woke up on the wrong side of the bed.
I've been very stressed since last Saturday. We had a doctor's appointment. Went there and waited for an hour. Then we rescheduled for this week. But when we were leaving we found out that they'd been slammed since the covid resurgence and then found out that despite being vaccinated we were at risk. So I bought some masks but hopefully that exposure doesn't make Ian and I sick.
Sighs I hate this pandemic and Florida's desire to ignore it by not making masking necessary.
I've been very stressed since last Saturday. We had a doctor's appointment. Went there and waited for an hour. Then we rescheduled for this week. But when we were leaving we found out that they'd been slammed since the covid resurgence and then found out that despite being vaccinated we were at risk. So I bought some masks but hopefully that exposure doesn't make Ian and I sick.
Sighs I hate this pandemic and Florida's desire to ignore it by not making masking necessary.
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I live!
I meant to post at the start of this year or in the year prior but my wrist has been having frequent issues and for awhile I didn't have much I wanted to say.
Last time I blogged, Ariel was dying. She had to put down on the first part of January 2020. I miss her and my other two lost cats so much. We've set up two walls with canvas photos of cats. One of those walls has Joey, Ariel, and Pyewackett. I run my hands along that wall a lot. I believe one day I'll be reunited with them. My heaven is a world where all of my cats are with me.... And I can chose who visits me and for how long.
That same week we adopted an Orange parking lot cat who we named Miso. Yes, we named him after the Stardew Valley cat. I wanted to name him Godric, but Ian did not like such a name. Where we found him was a spot that he was thrown deliberately, If Bri hadn't grabbed him he could have been killed by delivery trucks at her work. I suspect he was abused because he still flinches at first when we pet his face. I had to adjust my cat moming skills accordingly. I use stern voice but no shouting when he acts up... Not that he acts up much. He's a chunky orange friendly tabby who is very vocal. Every time he wakes up from a nap he announces it with trills and you have to say things like, "Did my baby kitty wake up from his naps," and give him snuggles before he settles back down. Thankfully he doesn't do that at night. He just likes his snuggles.
We also moved into a house in January 2020. It's something. It's a fixer upper. I liked the non fixer uppers better, they had a pool but they were 40,000 more at the top of our loan amount. They were also a bit further North and would have added an additional 20 minutes onto Ian's commute. We've painted the inside and Ian's remodeling the master bathroom right now. It had mosaic pea soup green floor tiles, sea foam green wall tiles, and a bit of rot from them using drywall screws rather than screws designed for wet areas for the railings. As were signing the papers is when we found out we couldn't have a pool... due to easements and underground wires outside. I'm less than happy about the house but once we've paid off some of the mortgage and fix it up a bit more we can sell it for more than we bought it for... And have a nice down payment for a house that has a swimming pool, is in a good commute spot and has features we like. Once Ian finishes fixing up our bathroom I will like it a lot more. Anything is better than the clashing green colors. We're also in the process of getting cool windows that will help keep the cooler air in and are hurricane proof. Unlike our original single pane windows.
In October of 2020 we adopted a little black kitten. We called him Nori. He's adorable with pretty golden eyes with green just around the pupil. The first cat I adopted that was a kitten and not a full grown cat when I adopted them. He's been a delight. Now more than ever, I don't understand how people can adopt a kitten, love it, and then drop it off the shelter when it's a year old. Nori was a cat from the start. He's feisty. Will make this little Errr grump noises at you if you pet him or give him kisses without his permission. Yet at night time, he has to lay on my chest, kiss my cheeks and receive his night time cuddles before he'll go to sleep. After that he'll go lay one Ian's side of the bed and snuggle with his siblings.
Getting Nori balanced out our cats. Now they all get along better. Sebastian, Brigid's cat, has decided that likes Nori and will play with him. Which is good because since Ariel passed Sebastian wasn't getting any socials with other cats. But because Nori was a kitten when we got him Sebastian couldn't beat him up so he soon grew to accept the other cat as a playmate and friend. He's still more solitary than the rest but at least he doesn't seem lonely. Now the only fighting is Mushi and Miso's male cat territorial disputes over the bed some nights. They were both neutered adopted at a year and half old and sometimes they just have to hiss it out.
But Mushi and Bassie get along and thankfully no longer scar each other. We won't be getting another cat for a while as five cats are more than enough.
I think I might have more to babble about but this post has gone on long enough. Hope everyone is well.
I meant to post at the start of this year or in the year prior but my wrist has been having frequent issues and for awhile I didn't have much I wanted to say.
Last time I blogged, Ariel was dying. She had to put down on the first part of January 2020. I miss her and my other two lost cats so much. We've set up two walls with canvas photos of cats. One of those walls has Joey, Ariel, and Pyewackett. I run my hands along that wall a lot. I believe one day I'll be reunited with them. My heaven is a world where all of my cats are with me.... And I can chose who visits me and for how long.
That same week we adopted an Orange parking lot cat who we named Miso. Yes, we named him after the Stardew Valley cat. I wanted to name him Godric, but Ian did not like such a name. Where we found him was a spot that he was thrown deliberately, If Bri hadn't grabbed him he could have been killed by delivery trucks at her work. I suspect he was abused because he still flinches at first when we pet his face. I had to adjust my cat moming skills accordingly. I use stern voice but no shouting when he acts up... Not that he acts up much. He's a chunky orange friendly tabby who is very vocal. Every time he wakes up from a nap he announces it with trills and you have to say things like, "Did my baby kitty wake up from his naps," and give him snuggles before he settles back down. Thankfully he doesn't do that at night. He just likes his snuggles.
We also moved into a house in January 2020. It's something. It's a fixer upper. I liked the non fixer uppers better, they had a pool but they were 40,000 more at the top of our loan amount. They were also a bit further North and would have added an additional 20 minutes onto Ian's commute. We've painted the inside and Ian's remodeling the master bathroom right now. It had mosaic pea soup green floor tiles, sea foam green wall tiles, and a bit of rot from them using drywall screws rather than screws designed for wet areas for the railings. As were signing the papers is when we found out we couldn't have a pool... due to easements and underground wires outside. I'm less than happy about the house but once we've paid off some of the mortgage and fix it up a bit more we can sell it for more than we bought it for... And have a nice down payment for a house that has a swimming pool, is in a good commute spot and has features we like. Once Ian finishes fixing up our bathroom I will like it a lot more. Anything is better than the clashing green colors. We're also in the process of getting cool windows that will help keep the cooler air in and are hurricane proof. Unlike our original single pane windows.
In October of 2020 we adopted a little black kitten. We called him Nori. He's adorable with pretty golden eyes with green just around the pupil. The first cat I adopted that was a kitten and not a full grown cat when I adopted them. He's been a delight. Now more than ever, I don't understand how people can adopt a kitten, love it, and then drop it off the shelter when it's a year old. Nori was a cat from the start. He's feisty. Will make this little Errr grump noises at you if you pet him or give him kisses without his permission. Yet at night time, he has to lay on my chest, kiss my cheeks and receive his night time cuddles before he'll go to sleep. After that he'll go lay one Ian's side of the bed and snuggle with his siblings.
Getting Nori balanced out our cats. Now they all get along better. Sebastian, Brigid's cat, has decided that likes Nori and will play with him. Which is good because since Ariel passed Sebastian wasn't getting any socials with other cats. But because Nori was a kitten when we got him Sebastian couldn't beat him up so he soon grew to accept the other cat as a playmate and friend. He's still more solitary than the rest but at least he doesn't seem lonely. Now the only fighting is Mushi and Miso's male cat territorial disputes over the bed some nights. They were both neutered adopted at a year and half old and sometimes they just have to hiss it out.
But Mushi and Bassie get along and thankfully no longer scar each other. We won't be getting another cat for a while as five cats are more than enough.
I think I might have more to babble about but this post has gone on long enough. Hope everyone is well.